There is a table booked in both our names,
Sandy, at this burnt end of the year,
In a timbered ingle of the Wayside Inn,
Hard by the fire.
Exactly now (as with a practiced twist
You bring the final touch of Winter Rose
To your pursed lips, and for the umpteenth time
Apply the test
Of sitting for your portrait in the mirror,
And for the umpteenth time you pass), just now
There's bustling in the kitchens of the Inn.
Trolleys in tow,
Platoons of waiters—Sudbury boys in white
Aprons—heft pressed linen with a snap
Above oak tables, deal out pewter plates
And pewter cups,
While, picking out the counterpoint, brisk girls,
Making haste slowly, glide with cupping hands,
Cradling flames they stoop, then lift, to touch to
Candle, then sconce.
From pondering ovens rolls a savory
Rumor of quail spiraling on their spits.
Glow and scent and scuttle recombine.
The Inn awaits.
And if you ask what's the occasion—not
Our anniversary, nobody's birthday, so
Why this unlooked-for warmth amid
It's this: I want you back. And if you say,
"I'm here, I never left, these twenty odd
Years," well, that's just it: I never meant
That you should plod
Doggedly through the desert of my neglect,
Trailing as I ranged from booth to booth
At Vanity Fair. I'm done with that. I want
You and me both
Again. I want your hand across the table,
Voice in my ears, that cadence and that timbre.
Winter's not what it used to be: it's starker
Than I remember,
Now that we can speak in terms of years
Left to us.
Look: no more of that. Just say
Something in that voice. Something to keep
All that at bay.
(Horace Odes 4.11)
David Robert Books