If I use cellophane and diazotypeI just might disintegrate.
This isn’t a diary entry or proof.I don’t remember.
But there are photographs.
Then, the film goes blank.
The elsewhere of deathIts blindingWhite salve—
“Snow Diary” from Dregs © 2018 by Cynthia Cruz.
Appears with the permission of Four Way Books.
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Cynthia Cruz is the author of five collections of poetry, including four with Four Way Books: The Glimmering Room (2012), Wunderkammer (2014), and How the End Begins (2016). Cruz has received fellowships from Yaddo and the MacDowell Colony as well as a Hodder Fellowship from Princeton University. She has an MFA from Sarah Lawrence College in writing and an MFA in Art Criticism & Writing from the School of Visual Arts. Cruz is currently pursuing a PhD in German Studies at Rutgers University. She teaches at Sarah Lawrence College.
“in the word-world of Cynthia Cruz, the smallest apertures open on the largest of events; to see the future one must peer through lorgnettes, needle-eyes, ever smaller and more ornate holes. ‘The small blue magic / plastic transistor’ plays ‘all winter’ in the hotel room poised on the abyss. Cruz elicits the charming fatality of cosmos-as-quirk, quark-as-rush-of-doom, and reminds us that the lyric itself, however slender, is a splendid and deadly elixir.”
— Joyelle McSweeney