To the Woman Who Said I Was “Too Normal” For Therapy
I.sleep is stale grass I lay in no blanket no silkmy eyes swamp their own mud dry, moisten the ceiling fogthere are days I don’t move my stepmom told her friendthis place is so lonelyshe only visited me a few hoursno one stays here for long I stopped asking the public is tooheavy to hold my lungs would have teeth before they had a voiceII.I stopped eating dinner without salt I don’t makemusic anymore, I break strings.The backs of crawfish.Men I want buy me more or don’t I’ve stopped breathingin my sleep if I make it there he said I scared him some nightsbut he wasn’t ready to run out of stories even though he didrun,III.I am the blankat the book’s beginning I never endthem but I am wide openthe unfinished zombies goodfriends a memory I admit that I don’t recognize mostnot even men I thought I loved I’m unfair to the treesI used to write them off when I’m so good at forgettingand everywhere isa place I feel I’ve never been
Copyright © 2018 by Crystal Stone.
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Crystal’s work has previously appeared or is forthcoming in BONED, Eunoia Review, isacoustic*, Tuck Magazine, Writers Resist, Drunk Monkeys, Coldnoon, Poets Reading the News, Jet Fuel Review, Sigma Tau Delta Rectangle, North Central Review, Badlands Review, Green Blotter, Southword Journal Online and Dylan Days. She is currently pursuing her MFA at Iowa State University and gave a TEDx talk called ‘The Transformative Power of Poetry’ the first week of April. Her first full-length collection, Knock-off Monarch, is forthcoming from Dawn Valley Press. You can see her Ted X talk, The Transformative Power of Poetry, here: https://tinyurl.com/ybenpdt8
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