If You Play “Jolene” at 33 RPM

Phillip Watts Brown

Dolly’s vocals lowerto a cowboy croon:I’m begging of you         pleasedon’t take my man.Slow any songand sorrow bloomslike bloodthrough a bandage.Slow sorrowand it darkens like dusk-stained windows.Outside, moths fire-dancearound a porch light,a black horse breathesin a field, lungs fillingwith night.The words curveinto prayer:         pleasedon’t take himeven though you can.Jolene as Jesusgreen-eyed with fiery hair,the godgay men at bedsides beggedto spare their loves.Imagine the quietwhen she didn’t answer.Sound of the stylus lifted,the record still turning.

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Phillip Watts Brown is the author of Boy with Flowers in His Mouth (Gold Line Press, 2025) and is a poet and artist. He received his MFA in poetry from Oregon State University. His work has appeared in various journals and anthologies, including Ninth Letter, The Common, Ruminate, Spillway, and Tahoma Literary Review. He and his husband live in northern Utah, where he works as a graphic designer. He also serves as a poetry editor for the journal Halfway Down the Stairs. Find more of his poetry at www.phillipwattsbrown.com/poetry.

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Los Angeles, California

University of Southern California

Boy with Flowers in His Mouth witnesses a gay identity unfurling: from the earliest stirrings of desire through the tangles of young romantic relationships and, eventually, marriage. The speaker journeys from Utah to Oregon to California, from adolescence to adulthood, from the rigidity of religion to a softer spirituality. A garden growing both flowers and weeds, this collection contains moments of joy and pleasure complicated by sorrow and shame. Weaving in references to art and photography, the collection demonstrates a sensitivity to symbolism, beauty, and light that infuses the writing, reminiscent of Mark Doty and Richie Hofmann. “Shame unfurls in the silence” in the first poem, but blooms into a reflective voice—a poet more sure of himself in the present, now tending to the boy he used to be.

“'It’s slow work, unlearning paralysis.' And this slow work unfolds with gorgeous precision across Phillip Watts Brown’s Boy with Flowers in His Mouth. A story of queer desire told in intimate couplets, this focused collection charts a path from repressive religions and masculinities toward a gentle blooming, a liberated love. These poems move like a held breath and sigh, quiet devastation giving way to wisdom — 'not how I imagined heaven, / but any freedom to breathe is paradise.' Brown writes with a startling sensitivity, the smallest moments rich with meaning, and readers will leave this taut and aching work more attuned to their own tenderness.
—Kemi Alabi, author of Against Heaven

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