got to pullout from predatory capitalism            got to participate in all emancipation
I have to prepare to live tight            to court danger
prepare to live on air            I have to stop buying stop watching
have to learn to turn hate            into light and uncover I think
must keep calling Gloria who makes me have hope            dance to disco from the oil crisis
have to resist bottled liquids the colors of finger paint            resist the luxurious have to never
capitulate become a shell            I’m separated from my nation
have to search for my truth            the kids ohmygod the kids
teach them to turn off the damn lights            to compost shoot a gun make agitational film
to resist the lure to charge it            they will have to be tougher
so I have to mine for toughness            for me for the children
for all their middle age            to accept that it is fascism
that it was long coming          a long con            tears are blood act accordingly
have to remember the singular ubiquitous enemy            have to forgive
my horizontal rival remember urgency            not some ideal past that never existed
I do remember the precarity            have to live against the wall
into the future into the disturbance            have to return to a more lucid diction
a marrow of language I’ll read novels            about the past
I have to refuse to be            what they are to be what they’ll do
will avenge will disturb            will revise will filter
don’t want to      still have to