The Worshipping God
I'm a god in my town and my valleyIt's not because they worship me But because I doBecause I bow down before anyone who offers upsome passion fruits or a smile from their own gardenOr because I head down to the bad side of townto beg for money or a shirt and I get itBecause I keep a close watch on the sky with my sparrowhawk eyesand then talk about it in my poems Because I'm lonesomeBecause I slept for seven months in a rocking chairand another five on some city sidewalkBecause I give wealth the side eyebut I'm not mean about it Because I love anybody who lovesBecause I know how to grow orange trees and vegetableseven in the dog days of summer Because I have a compadrewhose children I baptized and whose marriage I blessedBecause I'm not good in a way people getBecause when I was a lawyer I didn't defend capitalBecause I love birds and rain and its wide-openwashing my soul Because I was born in MayBecause I know how to sucker punch my sticky-fingered friendBecause my mother left me right whenI needed her most Because if I'm sickI go to the free clinic Because basicallyI only respect those who respect me The ones who workevery day for their bread bitter and lonely and wrangledlike these poems of mine I've stolen from death
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- October 27, 2022
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“The Worshipping God” from ALMOST OBSCENE: by Raúl Gómez Jattin.
Published by Cleveland State University Poetry Center in October 2022.
English Copyright © 2022 by Katherine M. Hedeen & Olivia Lott.
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Reproduced by Poetry Daily with permission.
Raúl Gómez Jattin (Cartagena, 1945-1997) was one of Colombia’s most outstanding poets—and one of the country’s most controversial literary figures. He spent most of his adult life between psychiatric hospitals, jails, and living as a homeless person. Through it all, he never stopped writing poetry or reciting it on street corners; his instantly-famous public readings drew hundreds of listeners. As a queer man of Syrian descent writing in a way that broke with his country’s tradition, his rightful place at the forefront of Colombian poetry has long been denied. In 1997, he was tragically killed by a bus.
Katherine M. Hedeen is a translator, literary critic, and essayist. A specialist in Latin American poetry, she has translated some of the most respected voices from the region. Her publications include book-length collections by Jorgenrique Adoum, Juan Bañuelos, Juan Calzadilla, Antonio Gamoneda, Juan Gelman, Fayad Jamís, Hugo Mujica, José Emilio Pacheco, Víctor Rodríguez Núñez, and Ida Vitale, among many others. Her work has been a finalist for both the Best Translated Book Award and the National Translation Award. She is a recipient of two NEA Translation grants in the US and a PEN Translates award in the UK. She is a Managing Editor for Action Books. She resides in Ohio, where she is Professor of Spanish at Kenyon College. More information at: www.katherinemhedeen.com.
Olivia Lott is the translator of Lucía Estrada’s Katabasis (2020, Eulalia Books) and the co-translator of Soleida Ríos’s The Dirty Text (2018, Kenning Editions). Her translations have earned recognitions from Academy of American Poets, PEN America, and Words Without Borders. She curates the Poesía en acción Blog through Action Books and regularly reviews and writes essays on poetry in translation. She holds a Ph.D. in Hispanic Studies from Washington University in St. Louis and is currently Visiting Assistant Professor of Spanish at Washington and Lee University. Her scholarly writing has appeared in or is forthcoming from PMLA, Revista Hispánica Moderna, and Translation Studies. More information at: www.oliviamlott.com.
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"You could not simply peer down from above, nor would you want to—to enter Raúl Gómez Jattin’s image world is to be on earth with your own bursting, breaking heart. Through this act of translation by Katherine M. Hedeen and Olivia Lott, new readers can encounter not only 'loneliness and its causes,' no, not only verses of exhaustion and devastation, but also, somehow, a 'whole wonderful life.' How sweet the sound. Almost Obscene assembles a queer companionship of rag doll children, papier-mâché lovers, the Sinú River, and most of all poetry itself, a 'dangerous ceremony' Gómez Jattin chose to attend. I cannot wait to return over and over again to this open field, noisy with sorrow and joy, under constellations shaped by his divergent lines. 'Poetry and love did this to me,' he writes, and poetry and love could do this to you, too, if you let them. Part manifesto, part self-portrait, this is a book of amazing grace in a maddening world. Gómez Jattin’s poems from the margins shift the very center. I am sheltered in the body of this work."
— Oliver Baez Bendorf
"After 82 years of the institutionalization of art and writing by the MFA, it is unsurprising that poets like Raúl Gómez Jattin and artists like Lee Lozano—that is, mad, confrontational, libidinal, and ultimately resistant to becoming disciplined subjects of their respective cultural worlds—are being recovered. After all, such worlds now seem encompassing, total. But we should be careful not to narcissistically narrate their recoveries, as if they were some wild Dionysian strain—'I WAS LIKE WEED but they didn’t smoke me'—brought in merely to refresh the sterile Apollonian greenhouse. On the contrary, they testify to economies and processes independent of the world and thus destabilize its tacit claims to omnipresence and omnipotence—'when we see each other you shoot me a quick ‘how’s life...’ / As if I still had use for one'; 'The city dressed in lights waits for him and calls / The nice outfit will be dirty and ragged by morning.' Almost Obscene is an exciting addition to Colombian poetry in English and will help establish Gómez Jattin as an important voice in 20th-century poetry."
— Robert Fernandez
"Poetry does not make us well, but it can make us honest, so honest that it cannot be ignored. Raul Gómez Jattin's new work in translation, Almost Obscene, is a timely reminder of this, that he was here, that systems of oppression can never fully extinguish. His poems turn our gaze back to the material reality of the disenfranchised, of the wretched, suggesting with their tender, rough music that in these conditions lay a certain creative liberation. Always to be at the edge, of the mind, of the imperialist project, makes writing, makes living, impossible, tragic, this we know. But it is also a raging against alienation, the opposite of it. Gómez Jattin’s poems are anything but alienated. They are completely aware in their madness, in their language of love, demanding we see what is happening. There is life in this, then, and we will all be closer to the truth of ourselves, we will all be better, for having read him."
— Vanessa Jimenez Gabb
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