textile as presence in absence

Nawal Nader-French

The mother rarely speaks in the languagein which suffering occurred—like letters without sound reaching the tongue—half-visible in down-slope threads,pleats in language, an experiment in memorythat comes apart, sews in experiences,comes to say, there is no absence, really.

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Nawal is a Lebanese-Ghanaian immigrant, poet, educator, and editor, and the author of a record of how the mother’s textile became sound(NOEMI 2023). Her manuscript, an improvised song is likely to come apart and scatter in infinite directions, was a finalist in both the University of Pittsburgh’s 2021 Center for African American Poetry and Poetics Book Prize and the 2021 Autumn House Press Full-Length Poetry Contest. Her work also appears or is forthcoming in: the minnesota review, North American Review, RHINO, Fence, Texas Review, Bayou Magazine and elsewhere. Nawal serves as an editor for Inverted Syntax Press and is affiliate faculty at Regis University teaching in the Undergraduate English program and the Master of Arts in Literature specialization. About her poem, “textile as presence in absence,” Nawal writes, “After my mother died there was a silence everywhere and it felt like a new language or maybe like a new way to enter language. I remembered reading somewhere about those who had experienced suffering, who are multilingual, rarely speak in the language in which the suffering occurred. I thought I was learning the language I was grieving in, but it was also learning a language of continuity, my mother’s continuity through alteration, speaking in altered form. I wanted my mother to resist disappearing, and like the other poems in the book, this poem is a desperate cry for her to live.”

a record of how the mother’s textile became sound is a lamentation, a memory, a deconstruction and reconstruction of the author’s mother’s life through an examination of the complex multilayered textile/text/sound axis. It is about the impossibility/possibility of recording memory, how daughters are tethered to mothers though root language, how mothers are other to daughters, and how we are on a journey to arrive at the other within the self.

"Nawal Nader-French rides the syllabic, guttural utterance of language onto the cloth of the blank page, which becomes her mother’s marked body. Part lyric, part philosophical treaty on the nature of language in relation to death, and breath, her work moves beyond eulogy or ode toward the transformative potential of language to resurrect the other within us. This book is a gorgeous debut from a poet whose work is both precise and awe-inspiring. a record of how the mother’s textile becomes sound is a book I will return to often."
—Andrea Rexilius

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